When Love Feels Like a Performance Review
As a person who grew up believing that love must be earned, and that once you finally get it, you must keep performing to stay “deserving”, it makes perfect sense why teenage-me fell straight into Depeche Mode . Especially after years of learning and unlearning myself, understanding why I did what I did, why I chose what I chose. Their music hits the exact wound. Most of their songs force me to sit down (if I’m not already dancing to them) and think about the lyrics deeply. Maybe that’s why certain tracks are still stuck in my head and my chest until today. But things shifted a bit when they released For The Masses , a compilation album by various artists like Rammstein, The Cure, GusGus, Dishwalla, and Hooverphonic, back in 1998. I found this album in one of my friend’s record shops in Blok M Square underground (Blok M Mall Underground, back in the ‘80s until early ‘00s) around 2015 or 2016. It was sitting on the front-row wooden shelves, both CD and vinyl. Andi Twins , th...
